Knowing Your Gay

How do you know your gay? I went through life feeling different. My mom always said she thought I would grow up to be gay. When my friends were starting to feel attracted to the opposite sex, I found myself being attracted to my best friends that were guys. In society today we are all brought up to believe that being gay is bad and that all those that love you now will no longer love you if you are gay. So I spent all my energy and time making sure I was "fitting in" and that NO ONE would ever know I was gay. But it is not something I could cover up forever. Children and teens are ruthless and will exploit you to make themselves feel better or superior to you and everyone else. Most teens spend most of their time trying to fit into what is considered cool at the time. Going through those awkward times as a teen, growing into your body, and having low self confidence is hard enough with out additional struggles. We all have a desire to be liked and feel wanted. When your are feeling like you might be gay and your covering it up best you can. You think no one will like you anymore because now your a freak and no one will want you. The best thing family and friends can do is stand by your loved one who is coming out. For those who are struggling with being gay, the best thing you can do is come out. If you are getting ridiculed once you come out it will stop. Before I came out in high school a lot of guys would tease me and say "fag" or "queer". As soon as I came out it all came to an end. It happened once after I came out and I looked at them and said " Yeap you got it pegged". The sooner you accept who you are the sooner those around you will accept you as well! Before I came out I built up a fake confidence that over the years turned into actually confidence, because I thought no one is going to like me once I came out. So I built up my false self worth so I would feel strong enough to take on ALL those that might challenge me! Know that those around you are stuggling with you being gay in the same way you did. Give them time and love just as you wanted!